Wednesday 10th October
You know the feeling when you can tell you’re coming down with something? Illness looms. It’s in the post. But then after a few days, nothing has materialised and you don’t know whether to feel relieved or cheated.
Welcome to my world!
I’ve quit smoking before only to go back to it in times of stress/boredom/social weakness (select any combination of these). However, in times gone by, I’ve used NRT products like patches. The problem with NRT is that it keeps supplying your nicotine fix and so you might have stopped smoking, but you haven’t given up the drug that you’re hooked on. All the time you’re on NRT, you’re only delaying the inevitable withdrawal.
I’m beginning to think that, by going ‘cold turkey’, I’m getting all the nasty stuff out of the way in one biting-the-bullet-whilst-grasping-the-nettle kind of fell swoop. Get it all out of the way as quickly as possible whilst your determination is at its most powerful. Fight it.
Ok, I might be going through another bout of insomnia and have most of the symptoms you’d get with ‘flu, but in the final analysis, it’s got to be better than coughing up brown, lumpy, snot-like shit.
I should be feeling better about myself than this though…